Tuesday, July 17, 2012 | By: Debbie

Tuesday July 17, 2012 - Motivation..

I look for motivation in several different ways to help me loose weight and lately I seem to not be able to grasp on to anything.  I was lying in bed last night waiting for my heels to stop hurting just walking from the couch to the bed and I thought good god girl you are killing yourself and you are looking for something to motivate you!!    I am making myself an invalid with my own weight, and I can blame it on a lot of things or try to.  You know like I had a terrible childhood or I have a stressful job, but when it gets down to it I am the one lifting the spoon to my mouth.  I have to now ask myself if that ice cream is worth not being able to walk or fit in the bathtub anymore.  Oh yeah and try getting in and out of a small car, or for that matter riding in one with someone else.  I feel like I am stuffed into one side of it.  Well it is damn time I got a grip on reality and a grip on my weight loss program. 

So I am making a promise to myself and myself alone.  I am going to start eating more fresh veggies and grilled or broiled meat.  No more fried anything, I am also going to take a look at all the artificial sweeteners that I am using and come up with a better idea.  I am going to try something that I read the other day on what to eat or not to eat.  If it does not grow on a tree or out of the ground or it can not be shot and I do not need it.  I am going to look for recipes that can be made with fresh veggies or from scratch that does not need a lot of processed foods. 

I have set a first goal for myself for August the first to have 15 lbs off of me.  I weighed this morning and I weighed 279.4 lbs so I am upping my swimming to everyday.  Swimming is all I can do right now or ride an exercise bike due to my heels.  I am hoping that when some of this weight comes off that I can walk on my treadmill again.  Right now my goal is to just move my body.  I am going to swim laps and jog in the pool for at least 30 minutes everyday at lunch.  I have also discovered that I do better when I write down what I eat so I am back to journaling ever day. 

I know everyone can say okay here she goes again with I am going to do this or do that, but this time I am not trying for anybody but me.  I do not want to be a fat old lady in a electric scooter just because I have eat myself into it.  So stick around people cause hell has come to town...

Have a great weekend and stick around and see how I come out.  I will be posting my weight weekly or daily maybe.  I know that I will be getting on those scales everyday for the rest of my life it that is what it takes.

Have a great day.

5 comments:

Jo said...

I will be cheering for you!

spunkysuzi said...

I've really been enjoying my veggies this way. I take chopped up cucumber, halved cherry tomatoes, small mushrooms, zucchini, red onion put them in a container that has a lid and add some dressing of your choice, I've been using vinaigrettes. So good and nice and cool in this heat.

♫ Drazil ♪ said...

You can do this babe!

Desperate Dieter said...

What a fantastic post!
I started my (new) weightloss programme just over a week ago, and found your blog only today. You are already an inspiration. Not only do I KNOW that you'll succeed- but you're going to help me succeed to!
Thank you!

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