Disgusted with myself..

I get up everyday and tell myself that today is the day that I am going to eat right and stay on track.  Yeah that goes to hell in a hand basket real quick.  I have got to get control of my eating and try and lose some of this fat that I have gained.  My knees are getting so fat that I can feel them when I walk, not to mention that my thighs could start a forest fire they rub together so much.

I did manage to go workout 4 days this week, but that was all.  I slept in this morning.  I should have gotten up and went and worked out, but due to eating 8 Krystals last night and a large fry.  Oh yes and 6 sugar free fudge sicles.   Sugar free hell, I could have eat the whole box.  All of this made me toss and turn all night of course.  I am killing myself with food and I do not know how to stop.  Well IT IS GOING TO STOP RIGHT NOW.

I went back to Weight Watchers last night and I am going to plan all my meals next week, supper and lunch.  I have to do this for me and no one else.

My eating today has not been much better though.  I stopped and got donuts for the office and I must have eaten six myself.  We are talking about the Chocolate cover ones.  Also went and ate pasta for lunch and had myself a big ole piece of cake.  Yep two ton tilla walking.  That is me.

Maybe if I blog everyday and just talked about it, I can get some kind of control.  We will see.

Note to self:   GET A GRIP GIRL...