This is my starting over blog post and I do mean starting over. I am ashamed to say that over the last 4 months that I have gained back 30 lbs. I can blame it on a lot of things, changing jobs, trouble with my foot or all that we have had going on at home. Well that is all bull shit and I know it, cause the blame is totally on me. I have been eating out of control and it stops today. I can feel my self getting fat and when I went to the grocery store and brought a 10 lb bag of potato's I was thinking as I put in in the cart that I have but three of them back on my body. Why I did this I do not know, stupid, compulsive eating or just a death wish, but it is done and now I have to undo the damage. So I can make all the promises and say I am going to do this or do that, but I know it is up to me to get this under control. So I am taking it one day at a time and look at it one day at a time. I figure that is all I can do at this point, so today is my first day of a new start. I weighed this morning and I weigh 260 lbs and I will go from here. Sunday morning is my weigh in day and I will try and post this on my blog on Sunday.
Now on to the fact that I have not been blogging like I should and why. I have been super busy at work and hubby had surgery on his shoulder this week, but that is no excuse. The real reason is that I was ashamed of having gain weight back and did not know how to post about it. Well I guess the best thing is just to be honest about it and go from here. I wish I had the will power of my sister who can go all day and not eat anything if she gains a pound. I can not do this for a couple of reasons, the main one is that I love food, the way it smells and the taste. So for me I have to find something that I can live with and learn to eat that way. I read all kinds of articles that say do this and do that or I lost weight this way or that way. What it comes down to for me is just to learn portion control and go from there. So my new weight loss plan is just to get some kind of control and I will still be counting points sort of, but I will be posting my food log every day.
My next subject is about my blog and I will try and blog everyday and make time for it. So look to see posts from me again. I will not be posting tomorrow, cause I have not Internet connection at home so it will be Monday. I want to thank all my followers for staying and I will post again on Tuesday. Have a great day.