Friday, October 8, 2010 | By: Debbie

Friday 10/08/10 1/2 day off... Yeah right...

I was suppose to get off work today at lunch, but I had to stick around to finish a bid on a job that had to go out today.  I finally got off work at 2:00 and headed for deer camp.  I did not take my lunch today so I had to grab something quick, so I went to Sonic and got a chicken wrap.  They are good, but not 8 points good, which is how many points they have.  I am use to getting a lot more food for my points then what that chicken wrap gave me.   I have learned the hard way to fix my own lunches and I come out better.  When I tried to do Weight Watchers before I did a lot of eating out and used way to many points.  This time I am cooking more and fixing my own lunches and shopping better.    I stopped today and picked up some fish, lean pork and I grabbed some shrimp also.  Tonight's menu is homemade seafood gumbo which I can have a whole cup of for 4 points, and I will put this over a 1/2 cup of white rice for another 2 points.  I do not really care for crackers so I will just have the gumbo.

I see so many of you doing great and I keep up with several of you.   I was wondering how you feel when some one tells you that you are looking good or says to you have you lost weight.  Sometimes I just want to scream...  It was like I looked terrible when I weight 40 lbs more or something.  Did I have two heads, was my face dirty, did I smell what?   No I was just heavier and that along made me look bad.   I dress nice for work, I wear makeup and fix my hair, but the first thing someone notices is that I have lost weight.  This automatically makes me look better.  Now don't get me wrong I like the way I am starting to look in my clothes and the fact that I feel better.   The thing that gets me is oh you have such a pretty face and if you keep on losing weight you are going to be so pretty.   I see several people who are still heavy that look really great.   I know that losing weight is going to make them look really awesome, but they still look nice right now.  So me I am going to hold my head up high and keep on writing in my food journal and counting those points. 

Oh for some family news, last night we took my mother out to eat at Ryan's Steak house and it was fun.  I have not seen her for a few weeks and missed her.  She stays so busy since my dad died and then of course there is Bryan in the picture now.  We heard about him all the way to the restaurant, all the way back to her house and then he calls. She was like a giddy school girl when she talks to him.  I am glad she is so happy and if he makes her happy he is alright by me.  

Here is yesterday's food journal and I would really like to hear some comments from some of you on what you are hearing from people since you have lost some weight.  Do they make you happy, mad, or are you proud to hear it.  Lets hear them....

7 comments:

Joy said...

Hi Debbie,

I totally know what you mean. But don't be too hard on those who compliment you. Just smile and say thanks. That's what I do. Oh and I always say that I'm feeling great! Which I do!!

It is so funny watching people's reactions. Sometimes you can tell they are struggling with what to say. I just try to make the situation comfortable for all and divert the conversation and talk about them.

Keep up the great work!!!

Hugs!

L A U R A said...

When I first started losing weight, I was a little sensitive towards what people said to me. My co-workers would "jokingly" say things that would get to me. One instance, when I decided to resign from my one job because I was moving on to one closer to home, a co-worker said "Oh, so we get the fat Laura and they get the new hot one?!" That hurt my feelings :( I know he was meaning it as a joke, but still...It happens. Just remember all the hard work and progress that you're doing :)

Dr. Fat To Fit said...

I also sometimes feel weird when people compliment me. It is hard, but I'm learning just to smile and say thanks. It's not about what they say, it's about how I feel about me right now and I 'm still figuring that out.

Karla said...

when people make a fuss I thank them and wonder all the same things you mentioned in my post, but then I make sure to look at my behaviors and I want to be more aware of how I treat ALL people, with respect and dignity. I don't want to be one of those folks that never used to look me in the eye!! Obese folks are invisible, or so it seemed to me, I felt invisible and it feels so strange for people to make eye contact with me and try to talk to me at the market or getting gas!!!

I love your blog!!!

I have an award for you over my blog
:)

M said...

I feel a little embarassed whever I get compliments about my weight. It's something I need to learn to accept.

Allan said...

Don't hate me. Accept the compliments and be proud of your success. Guess what, you went to Weight Watchers to get healthy and to look and feel better. The picture was not as pretty before, that is proof of success. Don't knock it, embrace it, you are one hot Grandma..

Glenn, Fat at Fifty-five said...

I understand your angst, I've got a long way to go and feel like apologizing when I get noticed for losing as I'm not done.